June 30, 2011 § Leave a comment
I used to think that America suffers from a crisis of community. And maybe it still does. But the more I get out and about and engage with people from other communities, in vastly different and distant regions from my own, the more I’m convinced I was wrong. Indeed, I’m beginning to wonder if it’s not precisely the opposite: America doesn’t suffer from a crisis of community. What it suffers from is a crisis of the collective.
Let me be clear: There are enormous challenges facing our communities (one of which might be how, exactly, we define “community.” For the sake of this post, let’s leave that definition to the people who comprise these populations. In other words, whatever you feel is your community is therefore a “community”). Consider this: The average American moves every 5.2 years. Well, jeez. How the heck do you build a durable and vibrant community when folks are picking up stakes every 60 months?
Still, I’m increasingly optimistic and energized by the stories I hear coming out of our nation’s communities. Perhaps it’s merely a reflection of my relative youth and my history of self absorption, but it sure seems to me that Americans have reached a new zenith of awareness regarding the need to preserve and invigorate community in ways both tangible (jobs, infrastructure, etc) and not so tangible (spirit, spirituality, engagement, etc).
In a way, it makes perfect sense that the “solution” to an increasingly uncertain future would sprout from the chorus of communities that form our nation. The cheap energy and easy credit glut of the past half-century or longer is in large part what has allowed us to neglect our communities. It has allowed us to ignore the fact that each is unique, with its own set of strengths and weaknesses. It has meant that we haven’t had to even think about what these strengths and weaknesses might be. It has lured us into the tsunami of globalization, and compelled us to attach every aspect of our communities to the “just-in-time-delivery” train wreck that has been so detrimental to us all. The unsettled nature of America’s people, forced to cram their foreign-made belongings into a rented UHaul every 5 years, so often in pursuit of another temporary job that is going to leave them high and dry in another half decade, is just another tragic example of this.
The unwinding of globalization in the face of credit contraction and the demise of cheap energy all but demands that our communities come to the fore. And it’s happening. It’s not easy, nor is it always obvious how, exactly, we should proceed. It is certainly not in the best interests of the corporate forces that have benefited from the erosion of community. But against these odds it is happening, even as the collective bumbles its way toward a future it will hardly recognize.
June 18, 2011 § 1 Comment
I think about wood a lot. That’s because we heat our home exclusively with wood; we have two stoves, one in the living room that warms the majority of the house, and one in the kitchen upon which we cook for about eight months out of the year. The kitchen stove also has a hot water jacket installed. When the stove is running, it provides about 90% of our hot water. The hot water feels the way the prize in a box of Cracker Jack used to feel when I was six: Like something extra. Like a gift.
I like wood, and I especially like working in the woods: The whump of a tree hitting the ground and the small sadness of its demise, the way a well-tuned and finely-honed saw feels in my hands, the smell of fresh cut maple or beech. It’s a sweet smell, and it mingles with the exhaust from my chainsaw, which is also strangely sweet. It’s not a very likely combination – nature and combustion – but it never fails to affect me. When I was a boy, I would help my father gather the winter’s wood. That was 30 or more years ago. The smell was the same.
We burn nearly seven cords each year, which is too much. I wish our house were smaller and tighter; I hear stories of people who heat their homes on one or two or even three cords, and I’m jealous. Or almost so. Because there is also a part of me that thinks only two cords? That doesn’t sound like much fun.
We split by hand. I love splitting wood, and it is around this time of year, when the last of the coming winter’s wood has been split and stacked, that my body feels strongest. I have one maul that I use almost exclusively; I’ve owned it for four years, which means I’ve split nearly 30 cords of wood with it. I hope it will be with me for at least another 30 cords (or even years), because the best tools are the tools that hold stories of the tasks they’ve done. The more stories, the better the tool. The better the tool, the more stories it is allowed to help write. See how that works?
One year, we borrowed a splitter from a neighbor. I was working really fast, because our neighbor sells firewood for part of his living, and needed the splitter back. I was working too fast, and threw out my back trying to load a round of beech that must’ve weighed 100-pounds. For nearly a week, I was bedridden. Penny and the boys finished with the splitter, returned it, and bought the maul.
When our friend Jim died last month, his wife gifted us their sawmill. It is an amazing gift, made all the more so for the knowledge that it was his and that it helped to build their house. Now, it will help to build our new barn. We will load it with logs – mostly fir, but some spruce and hemlock, and the occasional pine – and we will run its blade back and forth down its long metal track. The logs will become boards. The boards will become our new barn. The barn will become a piece of our life.
I think Jim would have been pleased.
June 17, 2011 § 31 Comments
Not so long ago, I was at the home of a real farmer. I know he was a real farmer, because he told me so. The implication, I believe (though I can’t be sure) was that I am not a real farmer, because I do not earn all or even the majority of my living from a farming enterprise. For what it’s worth, this is not the first person I’ve heard articulate such a belief. Or even the third.
Leaving aside the question of why it even matters who is and who is not a real farmer, and why anyone would feel compelled to claim such a title for him or herself, I couldn’t help but ponder what factors must be present to make a farmer real.
I’m pretty sure our neighbor’s definition is income-based. That is, if you make your living “farming,” then you are a “real farmer.” Fair enough, I suppose. But I know this person’s enterprise pretty well; I know that his family purchases the vast majority of their food at a retail outlet. I know that they don’t keep a garden, or process any of the milk they produce into butter or cheese or yogurt. They don’t raise their own meat. What they do, basically, is specialize in the production of a single food (milk), which they primarily sell in bulk. This arrangement provides them with the money necessary to purchase the essentials they do not produce for themselves. This is, in his mind at least, real farming.
Last year I was at a book talk, and someone asked me how much of my income is derived from our farm. “Oh, not much,” I answered, because it’s not. Most years, it’s not much more than 15%.
“But did you include the food you grow for your family in that figure?” He asked.
Well, no, actually. I hadn’t.
Which is where this conversation gets interesting, because my family raises upwards of 80% of the food we consume. I’m not really sure how to put a dollar value on the food we raise for ourselves, because I know that in many cases, we could purchase our nourishment for much less than it costs to produce it, particularly if one is inclined to believe the lie that time is money and therefore, the time spent in pursuit of our food production could be more profitably applied elsewhere. In other cases, we couldn’t buy the food we produce for any price, because it’s simply not available on the open market.
In any case, I am struck by the irony that we seem to have arrived at a definition of “real farmer” that is rooted in money, rather than food. Frankly, it’s fine with me: I have no need nor desire to lay claim to the term “real farmer.” I am happy to cede it to those whose agricultural pursuits are based in the exchange of product for money.
What does that make me? Hell, I don’t know. And I’m not going to spend much time trying to figure it out: I’m too busy growing food.
June 15, 2011 § 6 Comments
There are times it feels as if I know nothing. Or, if not nothing, than not enough. This happens most often in times of crisis or near-crisis: A sick animal, the tractor broken, some dysfunctional component in our solar electric system. I am not by nature overly resourceful or clever with my hands, and I often struggle to find the patience necessary to overcome these deficits.
And yet, I know I learn best when left to my own devices. I never finished high school, and although I completed my GED and a couple of half-hearted semesters of college-level learning, my formal education ended in my early teens, which is about the time I decided I’d rather hang out in the parking lot listening to Rush and Metallica, than sit in a classroom muddling my way through algebra and chemistry. I limped through until I turned 16 and could legally dropout, at which point I hauled ass out of the high school parking lot as fast as my $200 VW Rabbit could take me.
That I ended up writing for a living had little to do with what I was taught; indeed, I still struggle with basic things like, comma, placement, and whether I should be saying “he and I” or “he and me” or “me n’ her.” Fortunately, I have editors who are for the most part tolerant of my fumbling.
I am struck by this irony: I have been able to pursue writing as a career in large part because I dropped out of the formal education system, not in spite of it. If I’d finished high school, and followed the assumed path to college, I would likely have ended up with a burden of debt that would have precluded writing and farming as viable livelihoods. Which is not to say I would have wound up in a bad place; only that it would have likely been much different from so many of the factors that currently define my life.
It will probably not surprise you to hear that our boys learn outside the boundaries of the public education system. They learn primarily by doing, and by talking. Often, we read for literally hours each day, although at this time of year the primary focus is immersion in farm and nature. I believe strongly, perhaps obsessively, in reading; when I was in elementary school, I remember setting my alarm for pre-dawn, so I might have time to read in bed for a couple of hours before school. My parents knew, and encouraged it. They were wiser than I gave them credit for at the time.
Most of the time, I feel as if I know what I need to know. I have figured out how to make a living, meager at times, but almost always satisfying beyond the hard measure of dollars and cents. Crucially, it’s a living that allows me to pursue what I euphemistically term my “farming habit,” but which has clearly evolved into something far deeper than simple habit. For all of this, I am profoundly grateful. Things might have turned out much differently.
But of course my ignorance is still a bloated thing, and I often find myself admiring people who have a greater capacity to learn on the fly. Sometimes, I feel stuck in the strange niches of my expertise, unable to bend my mind around a new way of doing things, or a new skill altogether. I think about this a lot in relation to our boys, trying to figure out how I can teach them to be both independent in their thinking and learning, while remaining nimble and dogged.
They are so willing and able to learn. I just hope I’m able to teach them.